thanking the crucible

larry’s laughter and ellen’s laughter
and jennifer’s laughter and my laughter
filling the bustling kickapoo cafe
on a saturday that feels like a sunday morning
_______
how much like dogs
the little piglets look
(many of them black)
running around unfenced in verna’s snowy muddy yard
_______
oh it’s YOU
says lavina
walking into the building where the quilts are stored
i‘ve got all my winter gear on i say
meaning i am not standing in the back of the pickup truck
with my half-ripped cotton shirt
and falling apart cap
on our way to pluck beets
or gather peppers
or weed carrots
_______
folding and unfolding quilts
at the glick’s
with lavina and verna
the calm quiet sense that comes with
standing inside a building
without electric power running through it
_______
at the end of belgium ridge road’s dead end
how i have to stand out of the car
to see the land
smell the air
feel the ground under my feet
_______
i haven’t had a day off
in a long time
jennifer says
after we make it through two whole harry potter chapters
staying warm under the covers
while the wind howls about the trailer and
the gray sky stays gray and sometimes sends down
rain/ice showersprinkles
_______
the poem that ends with
thanking the­­ crucible
and its licks of hotwhite blueyellow flame cooking me down
to char and bone
_______
tenderpunk caits describes
my writing aesthetic
in week three
of the poems as prayers course
_______
crayola markers in eight colors are good
for many things including the multi-paged note
wherein i work on taking accountability
for my inner smeagol/gollum

this weird winter parade

half a grapefruit for first breakfast
then a thin slice of pumpkin pie for second breakfast
and third
and fourth
and fifth
and sixth
_______

juniper couch-curled
in pink fleece under purple flannel/down
around lisi the gray cat
who for a while slept next to her head
but mostly doesn’t know how to or care to cuddle
_______

larry who carries extra hats and gloves
to give out/share with people
that might need them
laughing heartily at the lights
the weird small town floats
the effective and ineffective candy tossing
of this weird winter parade
that ends with the climate crisis extinction rebellion crew
(reaper on skates and the world in a casket)
followed by santa in the fire engine cherry picker
lit up eerily –
how i lean over to ellen to tell her
one of the reasons i love when they come to visit
is that it means we go to stuff like this
_______
life is short
she says
it’s all conjecture she says
i’m just living my life she says
each of these short phrases
a reorientation,
a guide,
a  sobering dose of a thinker
offered to the squishy working-it-out heart of a feeler
_______

the string cheese tossed out
from the organic valley float
in the twinklefest parade
that juniper runs after
in between floats
to keep them from getting squished mid-road
and to bring them home
as they are sunbssstantivf snahnks
_______
this is the most sexist joke i know
says ellen, doubled over laughing
(in the midst of the hot potato/taboo game
that somehow has us using testicle as a verb)
about the person who made a freudian slip
when trying to say pass the salt
to their partner
but who instead says
bitch, you ruined my life
and we are all doubled over
partly because of the joke
and partly because of ellen, badass feminist as hell organizer, telling it

work with me

she’s not wearing any clothes
juniper says of the yoga teacher in the video
in a bikini top and short shorts bottoms
so we joke about starting a campaign/fundraiser
to purchase the unfortunate yoga teachers
some actual clothes
_______
you gotta work with me, i can’t do it all myself
the universe says as i plead with ki,
almost crumpled to my knees
partway along the four mile loop
on blonde gravel and snow-ice road
as i walk it out/work it out
(sadness and torment, like dogs, like to be taken for walks)
like an eat pray love moment
or a cheryl strayed WILD moment
which, upon realizing this, makes me laughcry at myself
again/even more
_______
singing holy holy holy
to the small gold brown hill
of a dead cow
in the barn driveway of the farm down the road
where there are usually cats
_______
the long pheasant feather tail
as seen from down the road on my approach home
telling me that ki is indeed a pheasant
and not a crow or a turkey
_______
how the quiet out here is so silent
when i pause my steady gravel-crunching steps
i take a deep drink of the hush
among the shorn cornfields and bare limbs
_______

the feast cooked
for those who have already eaten:
sausage stuffing
vegetarian stuffing
pumpkin pie with jennifer-grown garden pumpkin
kale salad
a chicken
roasted roots
cranberry sauce
_______
lynn and i splitting the bottle
of strawberry soda
its goodness and sweetness make it inherently
a thing to share/never drink alone
_______
the pocket game of charades we play
for the final hurrah of straysgiving evening
and how i don’t want to stop
_______
juniper and i laughing at hand signals/pantomimes
that one can make for buttsplosions
to use in a public or group setting
to covertly communicate to another person
without having to reveal to the other group
that one just experienced buttsplosions
in the bathroom

the house inside me

grey kitty curled
on my palm
cheekbones cupped
in between pillows
in the waking-into-day
part of the morning
_______
the northish side of everything (stair railings, light posts, twisty curvy tree limbs) slapped with an inch or two of snow
the magic dimension-bringing qualities this has
in the woods
_______
out the window and out in the world walking the gravel,
all day, these colors:
light gold (corn stubble) and steel blue (sky) and gray (sky) and white_ (snow and sky)
_______

cold whipping wind
slipping up into the holes at the heels of my boots
and through the holes in my socks
cutting through at first
but warmed by movement
and the laughter at sock rockets
and crooked oranges
_______
the crackly sound
of branches (layered with crunchy icy on the bottom and powdery snow on top)
along the gravel roadside
in the wind
_______
powderfluff snow
not good for throwing
but we do anyway
and i fake being hit
and collapse onto the ground
_______
i’m right here juniper
says in response
to me saying it’s like the house inside me
is splintering apart

the access axis

lotus hands
held to chest
shareen guiding me through
_______
pinching cheeks and arms
to make sure
you’re here / i’m here
_______
the access axis has rotated
i say
while juniper wraps me in some snoogle therapy
as we move forward through the familiar and uncharted
grabbing stars as handrails
_______
well, i guess we walked the sun down i say
as we round the corner to the mobile estate
car lights coming at us
in the darker-than-dusk

_______
pema in her black pants and top
martial arts uniform
walking through the bulk aisle
green belt wrapped around waist
_______
the rose tea she brings me steaming
on a bamboo platter
with honey and a spoon

_______

the spatter lick swish
of rain and maybe ice-rain
against the windows, the skylight, the metal carport roof

a human called home

i spent the morning on my hands and knees for you –
scrubbing the kitchen floor
i text
a la crosse-bound lion
_______
each of us laughing together
in our separate places
at this statement
so now that we are clear on you maybe not maybe flirting and me maybe flirting if it is not an offense, I think we are all good right?
_______
librarian style i read to them
at the dining room table
so they can see the illustrations
from sitti’s secrets as i go
_______
not to be all ‘when i was your age’ about it
i say
to my 19-21-year-old-students
as i share photos of me (shave-headed and blue banged and pink banged in oversize red patched hoodie)
when i was their age
_______
stretched out on a mat in dim-lit room 202
alongside other other bodies also stretching
and tottering while we balance
and breathing our dragon breath through the tough poses
while havvah guides us
with her velvet voice
_______

how we are all a bit shy at first
but it doesn’t take long for us to find our movement
and our volume
kicking and yelling HA is good she says
remember this move (from lunge to kick)
for when you are frustrated or angry
_______
dancing to the top 40s
coming out of the red solar powered radio
that really just needs to be charged by plugging it into the wall anyway
as i halve brussels sprouts
for a simple frankie style
welcome home dinner
of roasted kabocha squash and roasted brussels and
quinoa with tasty toasted seeds on the side
_______

juniper burrito_rolled in the covers
(no, maki,
she says because the toes and head
are poking out)
drifting in and out of the sleep of a weary traveler
while

_______
waking up from an pre-bedtime snoogle
under the grape/chicory blanket
solar poof still lit
curled in the warmth
of a human called home
like waking up
from one of the best dreams
_______
the last stanza
from the typewritten lion ode poem
i read to juniper upon her return

home can mean so many things
like a tree growing over rusted links
left chained around ki’s trunk,
i mistake your bones for mine

 

 

the cornfield horizon

how sharing an order of two dishes
(1. fancy french toast with plum sauce, creme fraiche and almonds
2. broccoli omelette with potatoes)
with someone across the table i just met
(friend of friends)
feels like an awkward kind of intimate
but good-awkward, not bad
_______

the red berries annie and i toss at each other
in front of her front yard
i take cover behind the skinny tree the red berries fall from,
i take cover close to the ground
_______
hot pink hoodie up
even when i’ve walked far enough fast enough (racing sunset)
to generate enough warm to pull it down
it’s rifle deer hunting season
men in neon orange drifting about
lingering near pickups
stringing tawny bodies up
from trees and basketball hoop rims
and the sky and cornfields
booming alive
with gunfire
_______

the breaking
when sun glows silvergold between
the blanket of clouds pulled low to the horizon
and the cornfield horizon itself

slowdance for five

the room with the sun in it i say
when she asks where we should start
and i bring the damp washcloth
to the dust that has gathered there
on frame edges and table surfaces and candlesticks
and then i work out from there
_______
it is good perspective
to remember/to consider
that it’s collapsable – time –
that twelve years ago and tomorrow
all exist right here now
_______
twice a day she says about administering
the insulin shot to one of the cats
he’s lucky to have you i say
_______

scrubbing at the bathtub,
the counter,
the faucets,
the walls,
the floor
there are some kinds of people
that find god in this –
i think i am one
_______

there should be a crayon named neon “open” light
so i could mention the sight of it melting

into the horizon over my shoulder
as seen from highway J curving (home?)
along the ridge

_______
bill and i ting! cheersing
in the aisle
sparkle to sparkle
to hydrate from all that rug-cutting
_______
las cafeteras onstage in maroon singing
My name is Emmett Till
I ain’t do nothing wrong
You need to remember my name
Because it’s seven generations long
My name is Trayvon Martin
I ain’t do nothing wrong
You need to remember my name
Because it’s seven generations long
My name is Sandra Bland
I ain’t do nothing wrong
You need to remember my name
Because it’s seven generations long

there are many reasons
for being here tonight
but just to be in a space where this is sung/
prayed/believed
might be the biggest
_______
about to roll my eyes at the slowdance couple song
until annie puts her arm around me
and there her and matthew and bill and natalie and i are
swaying a slowdance for five
in the aisle
_______
the poem begins:
until now, i have never needed to write
a poem about loneliness
sometimes the stars help

sometimes they hurt

no, but my spirit will be riding

sequoyah and jacob and i laughing
about just calling the event
what the hayell? – an open house
at the same meeting we decide
that we are party-planners,
not event coordinators
_______
the sparkle pink backsides
of the dirty tarot card deck
spilled out onto the table
in a pool that the students fish from
_______
sunset on goldcorn through living room windows
the colors of a sucked-on jawbreaker
or the milk in the bowl after all the lucky charms
have been eaten
_______
a small jar of olives
as barter with the universe
for another yes
_______
over curry, we discuss willy wonka
and dead poets and
vegetables and fruits one can eat
without peeling
_______
the land speaks to us,

there are places that have claimed us
tracy says before telling us
about fox-woman running stars back into the sky
and about her grandma’s last words of
it’s all a play, a show
and about the one who sings on his knees
every morning to the sun as ki rises
her words stirring something awake in all of us
_______
the sky in me always knows
where to set the sun
at the end of the day
no matter the season
_______
not sure if she’ll use it
but i give kva the f-word (fabulous)
to put in her pocket
so that she can carry it with her
and take it out whenever needed
_______

no, but my spirit will be riding my bike
alongside me as i drive home
i say to jenny
who asks if i’m biking home tonight
under these stars
these winter shimmer stars
these sky-so-clear stars
these glimmering-like-the-frost-on-the-ground stars
as we say goodnight

to mend everything broken

because today is trans day of remembrance/resilience:

image: kendrickdaye

_______

in alma, we step into the saloon
pull up chairs while the curious 5 at the bar look on
and allison asks about where to find the tundra swans
since the wings over alma office
is only open thursday – saturday
and today is wednesday
and turns out the saloon is a good surrogate
for a nature center,
the man behind the counter sends us to rick’s lake
_______
i think the circuitous journey
was necessary to get us there
i say about how we drove all the way north
to alma, with bluff-stops and backwater walks and curious questions
for us along the way
to find the great white birds with black beaks
on their way from the arctic to chesapeake bay
in the middle of their 3,100 mile journey
_______
the sky was full of them
judith says
about the tundra swans her friend saw
just across the way from here a week or so ago
and what are the chances
judith and i would run into each other
here at the shady maple wildlife overlook
thirty some miles from the town we live in
alongside the highway
where traffic rolls behind us
and trains in front of us
and just beyond: the white wings and bellies and backs
of tundra swans, the white heads of eagles resting and skyfighting, the whitebellied diving ducks
_______
romanced by the mississippi i report
about how good it feels
to be along kin’s waters
and the howling trains
and the bluffs rising up from the lowlands

_______
two gray cats
meowing on the pink-railinged porch
upon my arrival
_______
the night rustling
of wind through twigs and branches
shocked by how dark it is
between here and the mailbox
and shocked by how long it has been
since i’ve (we’ve) done a night jaunt
which makes me want to sign a statement
about how i will chase down the next meteors
no matter what ungodly hour
they might go glimmering across the sky
_______
unicorn shrinky dinks
on orange cordage
nephew-made
arriving in the belated birthday package
_______
karen in the online poetry class mentions
the japanese practice of mending broken pottery with gold
which i look up and discover:
it’s called kintsugi (golden joinery)
or kintsukuroi (golden repair)
(the art of repairing broken pottery by mending the areas of breakage with lacquer dusted or mixed with powdered gold, silver, or platinum)

i want to live a life steeped in that kind of beauty
i want to use it as a metaphor (for maybe right now)
i want to mend everything broken with gold
_______

in memorial of those killed in anti-transgender violence November 2018 – November 2019, say their names:
(content warning: below is a list from the transgender day of remembrance site that includes the names of those whose lives were taken as well as how their lives were taken)

Gabriella Torres

Manaus, Brazil

20-Nov-18

2018

shot

 

Perlita de Guerrero

Acapulco, Guerrero, Mexico

22-Nov-18

2018

shot

 

Nahomy Alexandra López Orellana “La Pepita”

Sacacoyo, El Salvador

25-Nov-18

2018

strangled

 

Fábia Ju Dias

Manhuaçu, Brazil

26-Nov-18

2018

beaten

 

Mikaela Africana Sanhes

Salvador, Brazil

26-Nov-18

2018

shot

 

Tydi Dansbury

Baltimore, MD, USA

MD

28-Nov-18

2018

shot

 

Rajni

Gurugram, India

28-Nov-18

2018

shot

 

Duda

Marabá, Brazil

1-Dec-18

2018

shot

 

Karliane Vitoria Rodrigues

Taguatinga Sul, Brazil

4-Dec-18

2018

shot

 

Luisa Fernanda Hernandez

Leon, Guanajuato, Mexico

4-Dec-18

2018

shot

 

Nancy de Monza

Milan, Italy

5-Dec-18

2018

beaten

 

J.C. Pereira de Lima

Itanhaém, Brazil

5-Dec-18

2018

beaten

 

Keanna Mattel, aka Kelly Stough

Detroit, Michigan, USA

MI

7-Dec-18

2018

shot

 

Name Unknown

Villa Nueva, Guatemala

7-Dec-18

2018

not reported

 

Jéssica Dimy

Rio de Janeiro, Brazil

7-Dec-18

2018

burned

 

Victória Landeiro

Rondonopolis, Brazil

9-Dec-18

2018

shot

 

Scarlety Mastroianyy

Londrina, Brazil

10-Dec-18

2018

stabbed

 

Manuel Luna

Morelia, Michoacan, Mexico

11-Dec-18

2018

not reported

 

Name Unknown

São Vicente, Brazil

11-Dec-18

2018

asphyxiation

 

Name Unknown

Parnamirim, Brazil

12-Dec-18

2018

beaten

 

Name Unknown

Klang, Malaysia

12-Dec-18

2018

beaten

 

Gabi Blak

Brasilandia, Brazil

12-Dec-18

2018

strangled

 

Scarlett Cedeño

Cali, Colombia

14-Dec-18

2018

not reported

 

Marilin

Buenos Aires, Argentina

16-Dec-18

2018

run-over by car

 

Valquiria

Imperatriz, Brazil

17-Dec-18

2018

stabbed

 

Litzy Hurtado

El Alto, Bolivia

17-Dec-18

2018

stabbed

 

Name Unknown

Guerrero, Abasolo, Mexico

19-Dec-18

2018

shot

 

Márcia Rodrigues Pereira

Camapuã, Brazil

20-Dec-18

2018

strangled

 

Gaby

Playa Del Carmen, Quintana Roo, Mexico

23-Dec-18

2018

stoned

 

Jéssica Bracamonte

Veron, Punta Cana, Dominican Republic

25-Dec-18

2018

stabbed

 

Denisse Hernández Rivero

Tixtla, Guerrero, Mexico

26-Dec-18

2018

stabbed

 

Nicolly Banks

Uberlândia, Brazil

28-Dec-18

2018

shot

 

Valentina Herrera Guzman

Cali, Colombia

28-Dec-18

2018

not reported

 

Melissa Brunely

Linhares, Brazil

28-Dec-18

2018

run-over by car

 

Rogéria Paiva

Maracanau, Brazil

29-Dec-18

2018

shot

 

Sabrina Santos Vidal

Taperoá, Brazil

31-Dec-18

2018

stabbed

 

Devora Montolio

Maimón, Dominican Republic

1-Jan-19

2019

stabbed

 

Mikinho Lima dos Santos

Lajeado, Brazil

1-Jan-19

2019

shot

 

Name Unknown

Klang, Malaysia

1-Jan-19

2019

other

 

Name Unknown

Gravataí, Brazil

1-Jan-19

2019

other

 

Laura Muñoz Arcila

Cali, Colombia

1-Jan-19

2019

stabbed

 

Name Unknown

Quintana Roo, Mexico

4-Jan-19

2019

shot

 

Dana Martin

Montgomery, Alabama, USA

AL

6-Jan-19

2019

shot to the head

 

Carla Girón Lodoño

Tulua, Colombia

6-Jan-19

2019

shot

 

Hande Seker

Anatolia, Turkey

9-Jan-19

2019

shot

 

Amy Griffiths

Worcestershire, England, United Kingdom

14-Jan-19

2019

not reported

 

Name Unknown

Tamaulipas, Reynosa, Mexico

14-Jan-19

2019

asphyxiation

 

Alka

Tatapani, India

16-Jan-19

2019

tortured

 

Sussy Montalván

Copiapó, Chile

17-Jan-19

2019

strangled

 

Sheilla Prado

Tubarão, Brazil

20-Jan-19

2019

other

 

Quelly da Silva “Jeninha”

Campinas, Brazil

21-Jan-19

2019

stabbed

 

Yara Serena Camargo

Recife, Brazil

22-Jan-19

2019

stabbed

 

Nashley Delgado Segovia

Aldama, Mexico

23-Jan-19

2019

shot

 

Jésica Benevidez “Nicky”

Parana, Argentina

24-Jan-19

2019

not reported

 

Name Unknown

Ciudad Juarez, Chihuahua, Mexico

24-Jan-19

2019

not reported

 

  1. da Silva dos Santos

Camaçari, Brazil

25-Jan-19

2019

shot

 

Aysla Souza

Rio de Janeiro, Brazil

25-Jan-19

2019

beaten

 

Pamela Sandoval Ramírez

Chimalhuacán, Mexico

27-Jan-19

2019

not reported

 

Mirna Antonella Di Marzo

Salta, Argentina

28-Jan-19

2019

beaten

 

Jehangir

Jatta Ismail Khel, Pakistan

29-Jan-19

2019

shot

 

Ana Paula da Costa Ribeiro

Tramandaí, Brazil

30-Jan-19

2019

stabbed

 

Ellie Marie Washtock

World Golf Village, Florida, USA

FL

31-Jan-19

2019

shot

 

Name Unknown

Kohat, Pakistan

1-Feb-19

2019

other

 

La Joha González Leal

Maracaibo, Venezuela

2-Feb-19

2019

beaten

 

Camila Diaz Córdova “Aurora”

San Salvador, El Salvador

3-Feb-19

2019

beaten

 

Laly Heredia Escobar “Sonia Laly”

La Matanza, Argentina

3-Feb-19

2019

shot

 

Mellyssa Rodrigues dos Santos

Piracicaba, Brazil

4-Feb-19

2019

beaten

 

Miriam Rivera

Hermosillo. Sonora, Mexico

5-Feb-19

2019

strangled

 

Daniele Azevedo

Manaus, Brazil

8-Feb-19

2019

not reported

 

Fabi Cortes Morales

Las Chopas, Veracruz, Mexico

8-Feb-19

2019

shot

 

Lolita

Sonsonate, El Salvador

8-Feb-19

2019

stabbed

 

Miúda

Niterói, Brazil

11-Feb-19

2019

shot

 

Kayla Alves

Nova Ipixuna, Brazil

11-Feb-19

2019

stabbed

 

Meg Duran

São Paulo, Brazil

15-Feb-19

2019

shot

 

Samira Morena

Sorocaba, Brazil

16-Feb-19

2019

stabbed

 

Rajathi

Thoothukudi, India

18-Feb-19

2019

dismembered

 

Nathyelly Cruz

Uruaçu, Brazil

21-Feb-19

2019

stabbed

 

  1. Barbosa de Aquino

Palmas, Brazil

21-Feb-19

2019

stabbed

 

Minerva Rubio

Chihuahua, Chihuahua, Mexico

21-Feb-19

2019

shot

 

Verito

Quito, Ecuador

22-Feb-19

2019

stabbed

 

Mirlla Vasques Arcanjo

Manaus, Brazil

23-Feb-19

2019

stoned

 

Name Unknown

Castellón de la Plana, Spain

24-Feb-19

2019

asphyxiation

 

Aghata

Manaus, Brazil

25-Feb-19

2019

other

 

Ana de Lima

Pacatuba, Brazil

26-Feb-19

2019

shot

 

Name Unknown

Guaiúba, Brazil

26-Feb-19

2019

shot

 

Sayonara

Carapicuiba, Brazil

27-Feb-19

2019

dismembered

 

Pamela Arenceli

La Matanza, Buenos Aires, Argentina

28-Feb-19

2019

shot

 

Maxim Brizuela

La Matanza, Buenos Aires, Argentina

28-Feb-19

2019

shot

 

Laura Gentle Argueta

Rotan, Isla De La Bahia, Honduras

2-Mar-19

2019

stabbed

 

Brigitte Galván

Yucatán, Mexico

3-Mar-19

2019

other

 

Maylla dos Santos

Coari, Brazil

4-Mar-19

2019

strangled

 

Pamela

Santa Luzia do Pará, Brazil

5-Mar-19

2019

shot

 

Maria Paula Murillo Reyes

Costa Rica, Costa Rica

5-Mar-19

2019

not reported

 

La Mariposa

Ciudad del Carmen, Mexico

6-Mar-19

2019

strangled

 

Flavia Santana

Anapolis, Brazil

8-Mar-19

2019

strangled

 

Perla

São Paulo, Brazil

8-Mar-19

2019

shot

 

Renata Spencer

Tepeji Del Rio, Hidalgo, Mexico

9-Mar-19

2019

stoned

 

Name Unknown

Jiutepec, Morelos, Mexico

10-Mar-19

2019

stabbed

 

Nazab Abid Shaikh Date of death:

Maharashtra, India

11-Mar-19

2019

throat cut

 

Junu

Kathmandu, Nepal

11-Mar-19

2019

beaten

 

Pollita Ruiz

Jiutepec, Oaxaca, Mexico

13-Mar-19

2019

shot

 

Name Unknown

Ciudad Juarez, Chihuahua, Mexico

13-Mar-19

2019

not reported

 

Name Unknown

Ciudad Juarez, Chihuahua, Mexico

13-Mar-19

2019

not reported

 

Zaira Betancur

Bogotá, Colombia

14-Mar-19

2019

throat cut

 

Caio Dantas Monteiro

Angra dos Reis, Brazil

16-Mar-19

2019

stabbed

 

 

Alcaldia Gustavo A. Madero,

Ciudad De Mexico, Mexico

16-Mar-19

2019

stabbed

 

Mara da Silva

Mossoro, Brazil

17-Mar-19

2019

shot

 

Alessandra

Buritis, Brazil

17-Mar-19

2019

shot

 

Name Unknown

Merida, Yucatan, Mexico

17-Mar-19

2019

stabbed

 

B.J.P.

Cancun, Quintana Roo, Mexico

20-Mar-19

2019

asphyxiation

 

Lara

Belém, Brazil

23-Mar-19

2019

beaten

 

Name Unknown

Manaus, Brazil

23-Mar-19

2019

stoned

 

Fabricia de Moura Lima

Goiânia, Brazil

24-Mar-19

2019

shot

 

  1. Adalí Hernández Rápalo

Villanueva, Honduras

24-Mar-19

2019

not reported

 

Jazzaline Ware

Memphis, Alabama, USA

AL

25-Mar-19

2019

not reported

 

Celaya Méndey Yelada

Aguadulce, Veracruz, Mexico

25-Mar-19

2019

not reported

 

Amma Hajjani

Sindh, Pakistan

26-Mar-19

2019

beaten

 

Marisol Montenegro

Puerto Montt, Chile

27-Mar-19

2019

strangled

 

Ashanti Carmon

Fairmount Heights, Maryland, USA

MD

30-Mar-19

2019

shot

 

Paty Santos

Manaus, Brazil

30-Mar-19

2019

strangled

 

Patricia Rafaela dos Santos Camargo

Maringá, Brazil

30-Mar-19

2019

run-over by car

 

Claudia Vera

Independencia, Lima, Peru

30-Mar-19

2019

shot

 

Crysllaine Guedes da Silva

Juazeiro do Norte, Brazil

1-Apr-19

2019

stabbed

 

Eduarda Albuquerque

Angra dos Reis, Brazil

3-Apr-19

2019

beaten

 

Barbara

Itabuna, Brazil

5-Apr-19

2019

shot

 

Name Unknown

Jacareí, Brazil

5-Apr-19

2019

stabbed

 

Shalu

Kozhikode, India

5-Apr-19

2019

strangled

 

Sandrielly Vasconcelos

Boa Vista, Brazil

6-Apr-19

2019

stabbed

 

Name Unknown

Franca, Brazil

7-Apr-19

2019

stabbed

 

Kasandra Solórzano Romero

Huila, Colombia

8-Apr-19

2019

asphyxiation

 

Brenda Plaza Vallejos

Valaparaiso, Chile

8-Apr-19

2019

stabbed

 

Marqueza

Campo Grande, Brazil

9-Apr-19

2019

shot

 

Malaj Islas

Puerto De Veracruz, Veracruz, Mexico

10-Apr-19

2019

stabbed

 

Juju

Sapezal, Brazil

12-Apr-19

2019

stabbed

 

Ainee Khan

Sindh, Pakistan

13-Apr-19

2019

stabbed

 

Sabrina

João Pessoa, Brazil

13-Apr-19

2019

shot

 

Claire Legato

Cleveland, Ohio, USA

OH

15-Apr-19

2019

shot

 

Kenia Hilton

Ciudad de Mexico, Mexico

15-Apr-19

2019

other

 

Nina Surgutskaya

Kursk, Russia

15-Apr-19

2019

strangled

 

Tamara

Ciudad de Mexico, Mexico

17-Apr-19

2019

not reported

 

Becky

Minatitlan, Veracruz, Mexico

19-Apr-19

2019

shot

dos Santos da Rosa

Paraná, Brazil

19-Apr-19

2019

stabbed

 

Jessica Gómez Rúa (Pajarita)

Bucaramanga, Colombia

21-Apr-19

2019

stabbed

 

Natalia Delgado Rubio

Irapuato, Guanajuato, Mexico

21-Apr-19

2019

dismembered

 

Haji Noori

Jhansi, India

21-Apr-19

2019

beaten

 

Name Unknown

Fortaleza, Brazil

22-Apr-19

2019

not reported

 

Rica Reyes

Cebu, Philippines

23-Apr-19

2019

beaten

 

Rayssa dos Santos

Caucaia, Brazil

23-Apr-19

2019

shot

 

Catalina Casquete Holguín, Cata

Ciudad Cuenca, Provincia Guayas, Ecuador

25-Apr-19

2019

run-over by car

 

Name Unknown

Salamanaca, Guanajuato, Mexico

27-Apr-19

2019

shot

 

Yaritza Angélica Millones López

Buenos Aires, Argentina

28-Apr-19

2019

asphyxiation

 

Jasmynne Fontile de Brito

Guarapes, Brazil

30-Apr-19

2019

shot

 

El Choco

Chihuahua, Chihuahua, Mexico

2-May-19

2019

shot

 

Name Unknown

Grajau, Brazil

2-May-19

2019

stabbed

 

Melissa

Bacabal, Brazil

4-May-19

2019

tortured

 

Larissa Rodrigues da Silva

São Paulo, Brazil

4-May-19

2019

beaten

 

Heart Pontanes

Malabon, Philippines

6-May-19

2019

stabbed

 

  1. Dantas da Silva

Guariba, Brazil

6-May-19

2019

stabbed

 

Yara Souza

São Paulo, Brazil

10-May-19

2019

strangled

 

Luana

Maranhao, Brazil

11-May-19

2019

shot

 

Name Unknown

Uberlandia, Minas Gerais, Brazil

11-May-19

2019

asphyxiation

 

Talia Silveira Pacheco Santos

Belo Horizonte, Brazil

12-May-19

2019

stabbed

 

Gökçe Naz Saygi

Antalya, Turkey

13-May-19

2019

stabbed

 

Natalia

Mexico City, Mexico

13-May-19

2019

beaten

 

Dulce

Alcaldia Benito Juarez, Ciudad De Mexico, Mexico

14-May-19

2019

not reported

 

Bibiu

Fortaleza, Brazil

15-May-19

2019

shot

 

  1. A. Silva Costa yuyt

Mineiros, Brazil

16-May-19

2019

shot

 

Alana Ferreira

São Paulo, Brazil

16-May-19

2019

beaten

 

Muhlaysia Booker

Dallas, Texas, USA

TX

18-May-19

2019

shot

 

Angela Paola Fajardo

Mixco, Guatemala

18-May-19

2019

stabbed

 

Michelle ‘Tamika’ Washington

Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, USA

PA

19-May-19

2019

shot

 

Thaylla Rodrigues de Moura

Campo Grande, Brazil

19-May-19

2019

stabbed

 

Jesusa

Fortin De Las Flores, Veracruz, Mexico

20-May-19

2019

dismembered

 

Reva Desai

Mumbai, India

21-May-19

2019

stabbed

 

Paris Cameron

Detroit, Michigan, USA

MI

25-May-19

2019

shot

 

Britany

Misantla, Veracruz, Mexico

26-May-19

2019

shot

 

Name Unknown

Old Hyderabda City, India

26-May-19

2019

beaten

 

Gala Estefanía Perea

San Isidro de Lules, Tucumán, Argentina

26-May-19

2019

strangled

 

Elaynne Marques

Lucas do Rio Verde, Brazil

27-May-19

2019

shot

 

  1. Adelso Rodriguez Alonzo

Usumatlán, Zacapa , Guatemala

28-May-19

2019

shot

 

Jahy Bianchini

Cachoeiro de Itapemirim, Espírito Santo , Brazil

30-May-19

2019

shot

 

leleco

Lucena, Brazil

30-May-19

2019

beaten

 

Rosinha do Beco

Morro do Chapéu, Brazil

30-May-19

2019

beaten

 

Rose

Jaboatão dos Guararapes, Brazil

31-May-19

2019

shot

 

Johana Medina León (“Joa”)

El Paso, Texas, USA

TX

1-Jun-19

2019

other

 

Chynal Lindsey

Dallas, Texas, USA

TX

1-Jun-19

2019

asphyxiation

 

Fabiola

Quimistan, Santa Barbara, Honduras

2-Jun-19

2019

not reported

 

Name Unknown

Barranquilla, Colombia

3-Jun-19

2019

stabbed

 

Miranda Pilar Ruiz

El Empalme, Ecuador

3-Jun-19

2019

shot

 

Mayte Castro Anay

El Empalme, Ecuador

3-Jun-19

2019

shot

 

Cecelia Cranko

South Orange, New Jersey, USA

NJ

5-Jun-19

2019

burned

 

Chanel Scurlock

Lumberton, California, USA

CA

6-Jun-19

2019

shot

 

Layleen Cubilette Polanco Xtravaganza

Rikers Island, New York , USA

NY

7-Jun-19

2019

other

 

Shakira (La Moy)

Choloma, Cortés, Honduras

8-Jun-19

2019

stoned

 

Pamela

Maringá, Brazil

10-Jun-19

2019

shot

 

Alex Milkovich

Nytva, Russia

10-Jun-19

2019

not reported

 

Name Unknown

Queretaro, Mexico

11-Jun-19

2019

beaten

 

Zoe Spears

Fairmonut Heights, Maryland, USA

MA

13-Jun-19

2019

shot

 

Name Unknown

Municipio Coatzintla, Veracruz, Mexico

14-Jun-19

2019

beaten

 

Nahara

Fortaleza, Brazil

16-Jun-19

2019

shot

 

Maycon Clebes dos Reis

Coromandel, Brazil

16-Jun-19

2019

stabbed

 

Dafne Yilmaz

Afyonkarahisar, Turkey

16-Jun-19

2019

stabbed

 

Pollyane Weneck

Coromandel, Brazil

16-Jun-19

2019

stabbed

 

Lohane (Jasmine)

Palmares, Brazil

17-Jun-19

2019

stabbed

 

Monica Devain

Jiutepec, Morelos, Mexico

18-Jun-19

2019

stabbed

 

Doris Hernandez

Guadalajara, Jalisco, Mexico

21-Jun-19

2019

not reported

 

Brooklyn Lindsey

Kansas City, MO, USA

MO

25-Jun-19

2019

shot

 

J.P. Moreno

Coatzacoalcos, Veracruz, Mexico

25-Jun-19

2019

shot

 

Name Unknown

Multan, Pakistan

28-Jun-19

2019

tortured

 

Name Unknown

Multan, Pakistan

28-Jun-19

2019

tortured

 

Maya

Khyber Pukhtunkhwa, Pakistan

1-Jul-19

2019

shot

 

Jessica

Araguaina, Brazil

2-Jul-19

2019

shot

 

Antonia Laínez Larios

El Negrito, Yoro, Honduras, Honduras

3-Jul-19

2019

shot

 

Santi

Puerto Cortés, Honduras, Honduras

6-Jul-19

2019

shot

 

Shakira Fernandez de la Hoz

Medellin, Antioquia, Colombia

7-Jul-19

2019

stabbed

 

Bessy Michelle Ferrera

Comayaguela, Honduras

8-Jul-19

2019

shot

 

Carly

Oaxaca, Oaxaca, Mexico

10-Jul-19

2019

stabbed

 

Name Unknown

San Luis, San Luis Potosi, Mexico

10-Jul-19

2019

shot

 

Name Unknown

San Luis, San Luis Potosi, Mexico

10-Jul-19

2019

shot

 

Name Unknown

Alcaldia Xochimilo, Ciudad De Mexico, Mexico

12-Jul-19

2019

not reported

 

Lucia Barrera

Parana, Entre Rios, Argentina

14-Jul-19

2019

stabbed

 

Angie Digiacomo

Buenos Aires, Argentina

17-Jul-19

2019

other

 

  1. Medina

Salta, Argentina

18-Jul-19

2019

asphyxiation

 

Denali Berries Stuckey

North Charleston, North Carolina, USA

NC

20-Jul-19

2019

shot

 

Tracy Single

Houston, Texas, USA

TX

20-Jul-19

2019

stabbed

 

Name Unknown

Nagrakata, India

24-Jul-19

2019

beaten

 

Sandy

Chilpancingo, Guerrero, Mexico

24-Jul-19

2019

shot

 

Bubba Walker

Charlotte, United States of America

27-Jul-19

2019

burned

 

Muskan

Multan, Pakistan

27-Jul-19

2019

tortured

 

Nadia

Multan, Pakistan

27-Jul-19

2019

tortured

 

Marquis “Kiki” Fantroy

Miami, Florida, USA

FL

31-Jul-19

2019

shot

 

Jordan Cofer

Dayton, Ohio, USA

OH

4-Aug-19

2019

shot

 

Pebbles LaDime “Dime” Doe

Allendale County, South Carolina, USA

SC

4-Aug-19

2019

shot

 

Rosalinda Pérez Berigüete

San Juan Maguana, Dominican Republic

4-Aug-19

2019

stabbed

 

Gabriele Oliveira

Belo Jardim, Brazil

5-Aug-19

2019

shot

 

Karla Fernanda Silva

La Maná, Cotopaxi, Ecuador

5-Aug-19

2019

other

 

Name Unknown

Tecoman, Colima, Mexico

6-Aug-19

2019

shot

 

  1. A. Cermeño Medina

Caracas, Venezuela

7-Aug-19

2019

shot

 

Angi García “La Gata”

Santo Domingo de los Tsachilas, Ecuador

7-Aug-19

2019

strangled

 

Alondra García

Ciudad Juarez, Chihuahua, Mexico

8-Aug-19

2019

stabbed

 

Aylin Hernández Gómez

San Cristóbal de las Casas, Mexico

11-Aug-19

2019

strangled

 

  1. Félix de Oliveira

Maracanaú, Brazil

11-Aug-19

2019

stoned

 

Sara Miranda de Souza

Frutal, Brazil

12-Aug-19

2019

stabbed

 

Abril Navarro Salazar

Alvaro Obregon, Ciudad De Mexico, Mexico

15-Aug-19

2019

stabbed

 

Nathacha Ruby Flores

Quito, Ecuador

19-Aug-19

2019

not reported

 

Name Unknown

Ciudad Juarez, Chihuahua, Mexico

19-Aug-19

2019

not reported

 

Aline da Silva

Arcoverde, Brazil

20-Aug-19

2019

stabbed

 

Kate Maikelly de Jesus Barbosa

Teixeira de Freitas, Brazil

21-Aug-19

2019

not reported

 

Ashley

Huajuapan De Leon, Oaxaca, Mexico

22-Aug-19

2019

not reported

 

Daniela Martinez

Cicuco, Colombia

22-Aug-19

2019

beaten

 

Name Unknown

Iztapalapa, Ciudad De Mexico, Mexico

24-Aug-19

2019

not reported

 

Name Unknown

Acapulco, Guerrero, Mexico

24-Aug-19

2019

shot

 

Hani

Mansehra, Pakistan

26-Aug-19

2019

shot

 

Roberta “Xirrara” Rodrigues

Inhumas, Brazil

30-Aug-19

2019

shot

 

Sana Khan

Khyber Pakhtunkhwa, Pakistan

30-Aug-19

2019

stabbed

 

Brigitte Escalona Escobar

Caracas, Venezuela

31-Aug-19

2019

asphyxiation

 

Name Unknown

Santiago, Chile

31-Aug-19

2019

stabbed

 

Bailey Reeves

Baltimore, Marylnd, USA

MD

2-Sep-19

2019

shot

 

Name Unknown

Ziguatanejo, Guerrero, Mexico

3-Sep-19

2019

shot

 

Andra Mora López

Tequendama, Colombia

3-Sep-19

2019

run-over by car

 

Bee Love Slater

Clewiston, Florida, USA

FL

4-Sep-19

2019

burned

 

Victoria Santos Falcão

juina, Brazil

5-Sep-19

2019

shot

 

Yuri Gabriel Castro Farias

Fortaleza, Brazil

6-Sep-19

2019

shot

 

Name Unknown

Ciudad Juarez, Chihuahua, Mexico

7-Sep-19

2019

not reported

 

Name Unknown

Ciudad Juarez, Chihuahua, Mexico

7-Sep-19

2019

not reported

 

Ana Paula

Jiutepec, Morelos, Mexico

7-Sep-19

2019

beaten

 

Carolinne Dias

Santa Maria, Brazil

7-Sep-19

2019

shot

 

Nemer da Silva Rodrigues

Santa Maria, Brazil

7-Sep-19

2019

stabbed

 

Name Unknown

Belo Horizonte, Brazil

10-Sep-19

2019

not reported

 

Name Unknown

Cartagena, Colombia

10-Sep-19

2019

not reported The victim’s body was found in a state of decomposition near a drainage channel.

Ja’leyah Jamar

Kansas City, Kansas, USA

KS

13-Sep-19

2019

shot

 

Shokir Shavkatov

Tashkent, Uzbekistan

13-Sep-19

2019

dismembered

 

Luana Piovani

Senador Elói de Souza, Brazil

15-Sep-19

2019

stoned

 

Bruna Torres

São Carlos, Brazil

15-Sep-19

2019

other

 

Elisha Chanel Stanley

Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, USA

PA

16-Sep-19

2019

not reported

 

Reena

Baiyapur, India

16-Sep-19

2019

not reported

 

Jessa Remiendo

Bolinao, Philippines

17-Sep-19

2019

stabbed

 

Name Unknown

Dushanbe, Tajikistan

17-Sep-19

2019

stabbed

 

Emmanuelle Agostinho da Silva Barros “Manu”

Santo André, Brazil

19-Sep-19

2019

stabbed

 

Leandro Parra Hermosilla

Coyhaqye, Aysen, Chile

19-Sep-19

2019

stabbed

 

Itali Marlowe

Houston, Texas, USA

TX

20-Sep-19

2019

shot

 

Médely Razard

Itaquaquecetuba, Brazil

20-Sep-19

2019

strangled

 

Bruna Surfistinha de Freitas

Chorozinho, Brazil

20-Sep-19

2019

shot

 

Paloma Barreto

Avilés, Spain

21-Sep-19

2019

stabbed

 

Mhelody Polan Bruno

Wagga Wagga, New South Wales , Australia

21-Sep-19

2019

not reported

 

Itzayana López Hernández

Alcaldia Alvaro Obregon, Ciudad De Mexico, Mexico

22-Sep-19

2019

asphyxiation

 

Yoselin Martín Velasco

Ciudad Modelo, Valle Del Cauca, Colombia

28-Sep-19

2019

shot

 

Name Unknown

Registro, Brazil

28-Sep-19

2019

stabbed

 

Chhaya

Durg, India

29-Sep-19

2019

not reported

 

Júnia Franco

Uberlândia, Brazil

29-Sep-19

2019

stabbed

 

Brianna “BB” Hill

Kansas City, Missouri

MO

14-Oct-19

2019

Shot to death