under a subtle sunset

the lilac-y purple of the chicory flowers and the
bright yellow burst of birdsfoot trefoil
flowering alongside the highway as i bike alongside the highway too
and call out to them like i would to friends
hey trefoil! hey chicory!
these flowers familiar as home

watering in the fruit tree section
i snack as i go:
three varieties of cherries
a handful of varieties of currants
plus gooseberries

something squeaking under a tray of perennial pots
in the greenhouse and how
i lift it slowly to reveal
a rumply bumpy greygreenblackbrown
toad frog

the not fledgling but not adult robin
(speckled white)
that goes for the red cherry on the ground
and when the robin comes back
several times
i toss a cherry
in the robin’s direction
crouched close to garden ground
sick kitty weightless on my back
under a subtle sunset
as if someone smudged the colors and textures with their hand
while i drop tepary beans
into the earth



the real thing is better

shirley on the sitting lawnmower
paused and looking up into the trees telling me
how she likes to stop to listen to the birds
and how this one she could hear over the mower
the basket woven from last year’s willow
that i carry down to the garden empty
and carry back up
filled with green
(arugula, spinach, chard, kale)
if you have never looked
at a blooming milkweed flower closeup
i recommend you should
and make sure to smell it while you’re at it
here’s a sneak peek
but the real thing is even better:

(photo taken from here)
the candle throwing its glow about us
as she speaks of the terrifying news
around immigration and border issues
including the u.s. planning migrant tent camps
on military bases
the chill of it enough to cool us
on an 80 degree night
the chill of it enough to be winter
if winter decides on not coming this year
which it very well could

too pink to name

i’m uncertain
if i’ll be wanted anywhere
e says

telling me about just starting seminary school
to be a pastor
and as a queer
she worries she might not be wanted
so i write her a poem
that says how much she is needed
and how when she lands with the right community
they won’t realize how deeply they longed for her
until she arrives
noa bouncing in the seafoam / mint tealblue booth
of viroqua’s new mexican restaurant
while we each take turns being
the interrupting cow
the deep blueblack
of driftless hills to the east
as seen from the highways we pedal down
blueblack turned bluerblacker
through the tint of my shades
the squeak of a garage door rolling slowly up
of the house whose address is 666 (washington st)
as we pedal past
the bunny
dangling by the neck in the grip
of graycat’s sharp teeth
and how the adorable bunny body bounce bounce bounces
as graycat trots across the grass
too hot and too pink to name
the sun setting sends a shock
of neon-adjacent color
across the northern horizon
from west to east
while jennifer grubhoes away
at the impossible weeds and i plant edamame round three

a name for the hills

jennifer and i tossing the moldy pieces of jokingly/lovingly called
homemade vegan cracker jerky
past the pine knob sign
sometimes thwacking the sign itself
sometimes sending it clear over
the rumble strips cut into the pavement beneath us
rattling our breath, our bikes, our bones
and how the cars that approach on them,
as heard from a distance, sound like farts
or jake brakes_______

unnamed phenomenon:
a name for the hills that we’re not sure
we’ll make it up but when it comes to it
we’ve find we’ve pedaled ourselves up to the top
and back down again

to not re-ink the story

for solstice we talk
about sending paper boats
down the cool and ever-moving (even in wisconsin winter) creek
how this statement:
UPDATE (8:30 p.m.): Funeral arrangements have been finalized for Antwon Rose.
is too final
too quickly
for a human who was just breathing and doing other being-alive kinds of things
only eight hours ago
though i don’t know antwon
i want to grind the hours down to a halt – so slow
that time starts to tip – tumbling backwards into itself
which might allow someone to step in to whisper
into antwon’s ear
into his feet set on moving
imploring him not to run
even when every cell insists otherwise
and all that tumbling backwards into time
might also allow one of us to whisper into the ear
of the anonymous cop
and into his hand shaped around a gun
telling him
to not shoot
to not kill
to not re-ink the story
that has already been written
by cop bullets and cop hands
all over black bodies
how i want this poem
to be a balm
for all those
set to run
because of the stories
they keep hearing about themselves
arriving, always arriving in the form
of a brutalized body
not a balm to soothe the terrible things
into some sort of apathy
but a balm that undoes the message
unfurling itself hurtling alongside the bullets
that zing through the too still air
pausing time or bending it or slowing it down and speeding it up simultaneously or stretching it to one side or another
as they hurtle from machine into body
punctuating the too old and too still-alive story
that says blackness means killable

green i have seen

rain and gray outside i
pull the white down blanket form the dryer
and burrito myself inside
while talking on the phone
to shiz two time zones away
with whom i laugh about grapefruiting
and ask about isolation

gray cat curled in a charcoal-colored sweater-lined
medium size priority mail box
on the porch

the cinnamon smell of granola in the oven
curlie-q-ing out the oven door
into the kitchen
and out onto the porch

the greenest green i have ever seen
of the plantain and other plants mix
jennifer hunts, harvests, cleans and chops
swimming in a mason jar of everclear



trowel delivery! i call out
from the bike i rode down to the garden,
my hand on the trowel handle
and on the brake
look, they’re contra-dancing we joke
about the twerk-off dance club showdown
of girls trip and later we laugh-cry
about the word blooperlessness
to describe the lack of funny antics after the very end
of all the credits
the cool air that comes with the rain
blowing in the front windows
onto our shoulders