dusk becoming duskier

the particular sound
of the metal plates under my running-shoed feet
as i run over them
across the trainbridge
and back again
while the cool (but not yet as cold as it’s going to get)
bites at my cheekbones
and thinly-layered forearms
_______
the skin of my right hand
glowing bright pink
while washing the sandy dirt of tubers
in the 36-degree-feels-like-27-degree
whose weather conditions feature harsh winds
while i kneel by the spiggot
_______
in the video tutorial
by the dahlia guy
i learn to find where the eyes
on dahlia tubers are and what they look like
and where to cut the interlocking puzzle of them
(which reminds me so much of harvesting
galangal on the big island)
_______
the dahlia tubers
snipped and trimmed
laid out on newspaper to dry
on the kitchen table
all 6 varieties
(some featuring as few as 5 tubers,
some as many 12 15)

_______
from a distance, what i think could be
a heron or some kind of white crane anomoly
reveals itself (as i approach slowly with two cats swirling
about my ankles) as a plastic gallon jug and a couple
of beer cans
bullet-punctured (target practice) and perched atop
several rebar posts stuck into the ground
_______
how on thickly clouded days like this one
the sun dips down into horizon
without ever being seen
from here
(which might be something like
when a tree falls in the forest
and no one is around to hear it
does it still make a sound)
_______
cartful and cartful plus
forkful and forkful of mulch
how i move it (the hay)
as long as i can until i can no longer see
(dusk becoming duskier)
the pitchfork tines
_______
sounds like a pound in there someone in the kitchen
says about emory, ada and raven
in the living room yipping and whining
like puppies
at a pound
_______
don’t be afraid of it baigz says
to trish about the stew-soup
on the butcher block he made for dinner

for you

this one is for you,
ice-bright star
carving your silent and dazzling way
across newmoon (no moon) night sky
over me
over the orchard
over the great undulations of these missouri rolling hills
as i step out into the inky night
which is not even night yet, more like 5:30
but dark as a moonless sky
after sunset

_______
this one is for you,
half-feral mama cat
curled in my lap
and for you,
ashby perched on the wood stump
and for the yowls that escape as you two
work your shit out
_______

this one is for you, yoga mat
who helps me land
who tells me home is wherever i place it
who gives me a place to remember my breath
who gathers dirt when i leave you out on my floor, but sometimes,
i’m just not ready to roll you up yet

_______

this one’s for you, magnificent sun
you don’t know (or maybe you do)
how ahrd it to sit all day in meetings
when you are throwing your light down
warming things up to the mid 50’s
while there are tomatoes to untrellis
and beds to be mulched
and frost-killed plants to be pulled

_______

this one’s for you, radiant heat
rising off the (cast iron?) thick metal
of the once-was-a-barrel
woodstove
and sinking into
my skin

_______
this one’s for you, colored markers and tears
which is what this segment of the annual retreat
is sponsored by
as we look back and look forward and
slash budgets and share excitements and fears

of the lemon tree

6:30am wake up
and how it feels right to begin the day
at a time when the sky is lightening

_______
a second day of the kind of ache
that makes me ask about arthritis
running through
_______

the gray-for-days
sky of rain that tyler drives through
on our roll home
during which ty, cyn and i
sip our kombucha/kevita/vitamin water
______
ashby the cat greeting us
at the top of the steps
by the dinnerbell
in the shadows so shadowy
that i mistake his undiscernable gray/racoon stripes
for all black and call him moonstar
_______
my favorite shirt i call out
to emory whom i hug hello in the kitchen
by the butcher block
_______
how i cannot help but
sip down three (small) cups
of joseph’s egg drop soup
(which features shreds of chinese cabbage
of the only head that survived
this year)
because it is exactly what i need/want
right now
_______
stepping into the scent (sweet and powdery)
of the citrus blossoms
on the lemon tree
parked in the cozyness of the woodstove-warmed
upstairs karma living room
_______

pressing my nose to moonstar’s cool coat
after she comes in through the window
smelling earthy (like just-dug potatoes)
and the scent of woodfire smoke
layered in her fur
_______
from the water world:

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Visitors watch as members of a local winter swimmers club pour buckets of cold water over their daughters, 7-year-old Liza Broverman and 2-year-old Alisa Smagina, during a celebration of Polar Bear Day at the Royev Ruchey zoo, with the air temperature at about minus 5° C (23° F), in Krasnoyarsk, Russia. – voice of america, day in photos

the long climb up salt mountain

sun on face and 
limbs moving through space and time
as i walk my way along the curving street maze
m.i.a. in my ears and
good morning greetings on my tongue
for every runner/dog-walker i pass
_______

the fraying cattails
and the gold grasses waving
reflected back on water edge
under clouds in patches scooching across the sky

_______

self-assigned homework i write sole/mahogany to seek out beauty among the box stores and freeways 
and i send this photo of 
the holding ponds that i walked past on my back route way
to the post office

_______
mom pinning the fabric
(of what was once a duvet of grandma siedlewski’s)
and me feeding it through the machine
_______
something magnificent about
sorting through my basement storage boxes
and reading papers from undergrad and professor comments
before i toss them
(the magnificence being:
having spent three recent years
grading undergraduate papers
i like to draw parallels, have better insight to where i was as a student
compared to where my not-so-unrecent students
were as students)
_______
dad puts the extra leaves in the table
while mom whips up the breaded walleye he caught
and eventually, i put together the salad
_______

will you tell us about where the fish came from i ask as we eat
lake erie dad says on the shores of northern ohio
_______

izzi joking about how when she was our age
she had to climb the mountain just to get salt
after we finish our fish/potatoes/salad/roasted cauliflower and before we encounter the
apple and cheese kringle
_______

when we get to the end of the sheet of paper i say when mom asks
what we’re playing up to
in this final hangout rummy game

the weight of it

the presser foot that mom
attaches to the sewing machine
so that the already-there stitching groove
guides the needle
through fleece
as mom and i work on
attaching a new zipper
_______

smell of  what i swear is pinon wood burning
(which is an instant transport/time travel
to two years ago at this time,
running the mountain town streets while
frost still clung to the alfalfa
and the sun had already broke across morning sky
and everything
was unfolding and everything
was absolutely perfect)
as i round the bend, running, 
along what mom calls the holding ponds
where a small paved trail makes its way
past ponds and milkweed and cattail and cardinals flying through the webs of bare branches
_______

an early christmas present izzi says handing me 
a small glass tub
of izzi-made lip scrub (bubble gum flavor)
the weight of it cool and pleasing
in my palm
_______

the big warm bowls of noodles
that chris and izzi and i pass
back and forth
at the family table
while eli notices weirdly located outlets and
isaiah downs his mac and cheese and nica
joins us in her workshirt and hair swirled into a bun under her black cap
_______

from the water world:

A girl showers her sister at the displacement camp for earthquake victims at Chuchepati in Kathmandu, Nepal. – voice of america, day in photos

aligned

this poem titled thanks by w.s. merwin
waiting for me in my inbox and
resonant enough that i send a copy
to my sister and my aunt:

Listen
with the night falling we are saying thank you
we are stopping on the bridges to bow from the railings
we are running out of the glass rooms
with our mouths full of food to look at the sky
and say thank you
we are standing by the water thanking it
smiling by the windows looking out
in our directions

 

back from a series of hospitals back from a mugging
after funerals we are saying thank you
after the news of the dead
whether or not we knew them we are saying thank you

 

over telephones we are saying thank you
in doorways and in the backs of cars and in elevators
remembering wars and the police at the door
and the beatings on stairs we are saying thank you
in the banks we are saying thank you
in the faces of the officials and the rich
and of all who will never change
we go on saying thank you thank you

 

with the animals dying around us
our lost feelings we are saying thank you
with the forests falling faster than the minutes
of our lives we are saying thank you
with the words going out like cells of a brain
with the cities growing over us
we are saying thank you faster and faster
with nobody listening we are saying thank you
we are saying thank you and waving
dark though it is

_______

dad asks if we talk about
politics or religion around the dinner table and say something about
how it’s not uncommon (especially politics),
but it doesn’t lead us to the danger zone
because we, though differeing in thoughts on tactics and such, are still aligned
_______
for all the resources i (and we)
have access to
i say in our
go-around of gratitude
which is a less politicized way of saying
for the water protectors and those supporting them
while they face the water cannons on below freezing days,
for those who have been defending the water, the earth long before the phrase water protectors came along,
for every pair of hands that have touched this food
before we put it in our mouths,
for the sun that gives us the brilliant light we orbit around,
for all of those standing up in the various ways they do
against racism, transphobia, homophobia, islamaphobia, immigrant-a-phobia, the patriarchy (etc) especially in these times
for those who spend time leaving water in the desert, for those who spend time sending boods to prisoners, for those who spend time working to abolish the prison system, for those who do what they must, risking what they risk, to make the world a more humane and place and to preserve what shreds are left of this wild planet
and of course i want to mention
colonialism and small pox blankets,
of course i want to mention
big oil and coal companies,
of course i want to mention
that thanks is a sentiment
but it is also a gesture and
i want to know
who will help me carry water
in the borderlands and
who will help me
with the harvest and who
will help herd the sheep of the elders
out at black mesa who are resisting relocation at the hands of peabody coal and the u.s. government,
and who will stand alongside me
when i say i am a safe space
for all those who are watching white supremacy groups
salute the president elect and listening
to the bullshit about a huge huge wall and who are navigating the world
knowing that there is no real accountabilty 
for those who perpetrate sexual assault
_______
make america gay again izzi says across the table and while
i usually don’t say or use this phrase much, what comes to mind is:
bless her dear soul
(meaning: thank you. not that you did it for me, but thank you anway)
_______

the small shreds of turkey that eli
brings to gypsy the guernsey-spotted cat
perched on her climbing tower

_______

from the water world:

Fishermen sail their wooden boats in the bay of Port-au-Prince, Haiti – voice of america, day in photos

A man bicycles down a flooded street with empty cooking oil containers during a rain storm in Dar es Salaam, Tanzania. – voice of america, day in photos

in these times

signs that read we back the badge
sprouting up in yards of this 93% caucasion city
as i run along subdivision streets
and in these times, in this context
it’s difficult to not read this as saying
black lives never mattered and they never will
_______

how i thank the day for its gray as i run through it
for the way its clouds hold in the heat, meaning
it doesn’t take much movement
in these 40some degrees
before i am unzipping my fleece and tying it
around my waist
_______

granola snackers anonymous i joke about what the GSA acronym stands for
and nica, 16, explains the presentation she and the rest of the 
gay-straight-alliance put on for teachers at her high school
whose topics included things such as
not making assumptions about the gender of someone’s partner/date based on the perceived gender of that person and
a discussion/go-around on pronouns
which, in suburban wisconsin, is a remarkable and unexpected moment
_______

the round and iced ring of kringle
revealed under its wax paper
on kitchen table
_______

the shine of izzi’s trophies all lined up and
i ask her if she misses dancing
_______

izzi and i taking turns djing a song or two
while she brushes on glitter and shadow and sometimes
tilts my head up by nudging it up at the chin
spicy she says of the gem-and-the-holograms look
and spicy i say would be a great name for your salon

_______
the rattle of the boggle cubes
inside their plastic case as we shake and
the tick tick of the scattegories timer as we
try our best to think of words that begin with N or K or C and
the ridiculous jokes that we toss out
and how our laughter lands alongside the
redpink plastic snack bowls from which
we can’t stop picking,
mom, dad, chris and i 
at the kitchen table on doverhill

her name as this

migas on the menu
and it might as well be her name as this
was the only meal she ever made (though she made it often)
and it was about this time two years ago
that i ate it in in the small glass dome
of a greenhouse across from her, surrounded
by flats of micro greens and the
small crowd of goats outside and
in the morning filled with the brightest sun and the white glow of
snow settled on the sacred mountain
_______
my new theme song i say 
handing gilliian headphones while
pressing play on the lhasa de sela song titled

anywhere on this road

_______
the podcasts gillian recommends:
codeswitch
two dope queens
lore 
call your girlfriend
hidden brain
_______

the palpable kindness
on the lower level of the megabus
as new acquaintances
who’ve spent 6 hours talking or not talking, sharing snacks or not sharing snacks, smiling at least at each other
say their farewells and great-to-meet-yous
a warmth
that is nearly impossible
not to feel as it
wraps itself around us
journeying
through emptied landscape
through the wintry mix spitting down
through the ache of transition and
the joy of landing
as we head into the crystal-studded skies and
the long darkness of winter
_______

bullion a word for gold
mom says joking about
what’s in the bag i insist on carrying rather
than allowing her to
_______

i have entered the future i tell izzi
as she shows me
how to add flavor to the soda at the cinema snack counter
using the touch screen
_______

from the water world:
 

a tidal surge is seen in Sunaoshi River after tsunami advisories were issued following an earthquake in Tagajo, Miyagi prefecture, Japan, in this video grab image released by Miyagi Prefectural Police via Kyodo. – voice of america, day in photos

everything else quiet

leaning in to get close to
the frost patterns on the windows and body
of the black car car
just before dad scrapes it off
_______
the gold sun
young in today’s sky
a kind of forgiveness/being forgiven
on this 20-some degree morning
as andy and i walk madix
to the end of the driveway as the bus
makes its way through the loops

_______
i’m free to be the greatest, i’m alive
i’ve got stamina
i’m free to be the greatest here tonight
i’ve got stamina
the beat and words of sia’s latest
lifting up and out of the phone
on the counter while everything else
has gone quiet
_______
ami and i speedwalking around lake elmo
where the water is a cool blue
not yet frozen
and the prairie is gold with the thinnest blanket
of snow laid over it and the bark
of the birches sings white
against the bright blue of cloudless sky
_______

the shine of laughter-tears in ami and i’s eyes
at all the ‘nailed it’ perfectly timed moments
or little gestures the director threads together throughout the entirity of
the hunt for the wilderpeople

the starglow

the line of pokeman cards
madix lays out on the family restaurant table
after we’ve placed our orders and before
the food arrives

_______

i wonder how many others we might find i say
as ami, madix, dad and i pause
at the downed dead tree taken
by last night’s gales
that seemed to howl and rush
all night
_______

all the floursecent lights
of the green/pink/blue variety
blinking and shining in the arcade
of the bowling alley and how i
stand at madix’s side
as he chooses and plays

_______

make sure your fingers can reach dad
instructs ami and i as we search
for a bowling ball that fits
_______

spotty’s scratchy growly meows
escaping her missing-toothed mouth
as i brush and brush and brush away
at her dready coat

_______
the starglow on the ceiling and
the whale sounds playing
as i tell madix bedtime stories upon request
the first one about a big horse
then another about a sword
then one about a robot and the fourth
i’m forgetting
_______

returning from the vigil,
rachel leaves her voice
a reminder 
that today is trans day
of rememberance
which means today
i give all my prayer
to those
souls 
still alive in our hearts still
being held with respect and care still
called brilliant and beautiful and fierce by those
who light candles in their names:
(below: a list of those murdered due to anti-transgender hatred or prejudice. 
please note: contents may be triggering as this listing (provided by tdor.

Brazil

J.W. da Silva (24 years old)
Cause of death: stoned to death.
Location of death: Paudalho, Brazil
Date of death: October 27th, 2016

Julia Sofia (20 years old)
Cause of death: stabbed to death.
Location of death: Nazaré, Bahia, Brazil
Date of death: October 21st, 2016

Yasmin Montoy (20 years old)

Cause of death: beaten to death, blunt force trauma to the head.
Location of death: São Paulo, Brazil
Date of death: October 16th, 2016

unidentified woman
Cause of death: suffucation
Location of death: Sorocaba, Brazil
Date of death: October 13th, 2016

W. R. Alexandre
Cause of death: beaten to death.
Location of death: Baixada Fluminense, Brazil
Date of death: October 8th, 2016

unidentified woman
Cause of death: stabbed to death
Location of death: Aracaju, Sergipe, Brazil
Date of death: September 30th, 2016

Rafael Silva (17 year old)
Cause of death: 17 gunshots, ran over by car.
Location of death: Porto Alegre, Rio Grande do Sul, Brazil
Date of death: September 30th, 2016

Chaiene da Silva  
Cause of death: multiple gunshot wounds
Location of death: Paudalho, Pernambuco, Brazil
Date of death: September 24th, 2016


Larissa (31 years old)larissa
Cause of death: shot in abdomen, thrown from car
Location of death: São Paulo, Brazil
Date of death: September 16th, 2016


H.J. Silva  (37 years old)
Cause of death: blunt force trauma
Location of death: Sítio do Quinto, Bahia, Brazil
Date of death: September 11th, 2016

Pâmela Pereira  (16 years old)14991-3
Cause of death: multiple gunshot wounds
Location of death: Conceição do Jacuípe, Bahia, Brazil
Date of death: September 9th, 2016

unidentified woman (24 years old)
Cause of death: gunshot and stab wounds
Location of death: Caxias do Sul, Rio Grande do Sul, Brazil
Date of death: September 9th, 2016

Taina W.P. Alencar (22 years old)
Cause of death: stab wound
Location of death: Londrina, Paraná, Brazil
Date of death: September 4th, 2016

Hilda A.J. da Silva (46 years old)

Cause of death: strangled with an electrical cord
Location of death: Aliança, Pernambuco, Brazil
Date of death: September 4th, 2016

Bruniele
Cause of death: multiple gunshot wounds
Location of death: São Bernardo do Campo, São Paulo, Brazil
Date of death: August 29th, 2016

Erika W.P. de Arruda (30 years old)
Cause of death: gunshot wounds to neck and groin
Location of death: Cuiabá, Mato Grosso, Brazil
Date of death: August 25th, 2016




Brenda
Cause of death: stabbing
Location of death: Castanhal, Pará, Brazil
Date of death: August 19th, 2016


Tiffany Rodrigues (23 years old)
Cause of death: asphyxiation
Location of death: Alta Floresta, Mato Grosso, Brazil
Date of death: August 8th, 2016




unidentified woman
Cause of death: stabbing
Location of death: Londrina, Paraná, Brazil
Date of death: August 1st, 2016




Thiemy Oliveira (24 years old) to2
Cause of death: stabbing
Location of death: Maringá, Paraná, Brazil
Date of death: August 1st, 2016




Adriane Bonek (43 years old)
Cause of death: unknown
Location of death: São Pedro da Aldeia, Rio de Janeiro, Brazil
Date of death: August 1st, 2016




Sabrina E.S. Sales (25 years old)650x375_sabrina-souza-salles_1653742
Cause of death: beaten to death
Location of death: Luís Eduardo Magalhães, Bahia, Brazil
Date of death: July 25th, 2016




unidentified woman
Cause of death: stabbing
Location of death: João Pessoa, Paraíba, Brazil
Date of death: July 13th, 2016

Edymara M. Leão (36 years old) edwy
Cause of death: asphyxiation
Location of death: Lago Norte, Brazil
Date of death: July 11th, 2016

Nickolle Rocha (19 years old)

Cause of death: beaten to death
Location of death: Cachoeira do Sul, Rio Grande do Sul, Brazil
Date of death: July 11th, 2016

Pandora Pereira (26 years old) pand
Cause of death: stabbed to death
Location of death: São Sebastião, São Paulo, Brazil
Date of death: July 3rd, 2016

Daiane Brasil (36 years old) well
Cause of death: gunshots to the neck, chest, and face.
Location of death: Uberaba, Minas Gerais, Brazil
Date of death: June 27th, 2016

Julia Almeida (28 years old) juliaalmeida
Cause of death: strangled, thrown in sugar cane field.
Location of death: Ituverava, São Paulo, Brazil
Date of death: June 25th, 2016

Danielly Barby (24 years old)  barby
Cause of death: gunshot to the neck
Location of death: Mogi das Cruzes, São Paulo, Brazil
Date of death: June 25th, 2016





Sheila Santos
Cause of death: gunshot
Location of death: Calabar, Bahia, Brazil
Date of death: June 24th, 2016

Lorran Lorang (19 years old)  
Cause of death: asphyxiation
Location of death: Duque de Caxias,  Rio de Janeiro, Brazil
Date of death: June 22nd, 2016

unidentified woman
Cause of death: beaten to death with a wooden club
Location of death: Manaus, Amazonas, Brazil
Date of death: June 18th, 2016

Gabriel Figueira de Lima (21 years old)
Cause of death: stabbed in the neck
Location of death: Manaus, Amazonas, Brazil
Date of death: June 16th, 2016

Paula
Cause of death: beaten to death
Location of death: Goiandira, Goiás, Brazil
Date of death: June 16th, 2016

Lauandersa
Cause of death: stabbed over 30 times
Location of death: Genipabu, Caucaia, Brazil
Date of death: May 16th, 2016

Ana Hickmann  (30 years old)
Cause of death: 2 gunshots in the neck
Location of death: Rio Branco, Acre, Brazil
Date of death: May 15th, 2016


Michele de Souza (22 years old)
Cause of death: 7 gunshots to the chest, abdomen, legs and arms.
Location of death: São José do Rio Preto, São Paulo, Brazil
Date of death: May 11th, 2016
Leticia Silva (22 years old)
Cause of death: multiple gunshot wounds.
Location of death: Belém, Pará, Brazil
Date of death: May 5th, 2016

Alana da Silva Pessoa (22 years old)
Cause of death: gunshot wound.
Location of death: João Pessoa, Paraíba, Brazil
Date of death: May 4th, 2016

Jéssica L.C. Menezes (24 years old)
Cause of death: multiple stab wounds
Location of death: Uberlândia, Minas Gerais, Brazil
Date of death: April 16th, 2016

Luana Biersack (14 years old)
Cause of death: sexually assaulted, beaten, and drowned..
Location of death: Novo Itacolomi, Paraná, Brazil
Date of death: April 13th, 2016

Amanda Araujo  (17 years old)
Cause of death: multiple stab wounds
Location of death: Imperatriz, Maranhão, Brazil
Date of death: April 11th, 2016

Bianca Abravanel (25 years old)
Cause of death: 15 gunshot wounds to the chest and face.
Location of death:Ribeirão Preto, São Paulo, Brazil
Date of death: April 11th, 2016

Andinho
Cause of death: multiple gunshot wounds.
Location of death: Aracaju, Sergipe, Brazil
Date of death: March 29th, 2016

Gabriela Rodrigues gab
Cause of death: multiple gunshot wounds.
Location of death: Aparecida de Goiânia, Goiás, Brazil
Date of death: March 28th, 2016


Keyti (42 years old)
Cause of death: beaten to death.
Location of death: Imperatriz, Maranhão, Brazil
Date of death: March 27th, 2016


D.S. Barros (21 years old)
Cause of death: 30 stab wounds over entire body                                             

Location of death: Belo Horizonte, Minas Gerais, Brazil
Date of death: March 23th, 2016

M. Moreira  (16 years old)
Cause of death: head trauma
Location of death: Sinop, Mato Grosso, Brazil
Date of death: March 20th, 2016

Camilla Rios  (32 years old)
Cause of death: 30 stab wounds over entire body
Location of death: Jacarepagua, Rio de Janeiro, Brazil
Date of death: March 14th, 2016

unidentified woman
Cause of death: unknown, dismembered
Location of death: Brazil
Date of death: March 10th, 2016

Mika  P. Da Silva
Cause of death: gunshot wounds to the head and groin
Location of death:Macau, Rio Grande do Norte, Brazil
Date of death: March 7th, 2016

María la del Barrio
Cause of death: unknown
Location of death: Manaus, Brazil
Date of death: March 6th, 2016

V.
Cause of death: multiple stab wounds to the neck
Location of death: João Pessoa, Brazil
Date of death: March 7th, 2016


unidentified woman
Cause of death: multiple gunshot wounds
Location of death: Gravatai, Rio Grande do Sul, Brazil
Date of death: February 27th, 2016

Natascha (37 years old)
Cause of death: set on fire.
Location of death: Tarumã, São Paulo, Brazil
Date of death: February 24th, 2016

unidentified woman
Cause of death: strangled, partially burned
Location of death: Porto Alegre, Rio Grande do Sul, Brazil
Date of death: February 19th, 2016

unidentified woman
Cause of death: strangled, partially burned
Location of death: Porto Alegre, Rio Grande do Sul, Brazil
Date of death: February 19th, 2016

unidentified woman
Cause of death: gunshot
Location of death: Carapicuiba, São Paulo, Brazil
Date of death: February 12th, 2016

Malu (30 years old)
Cause of death: unknown
Location of death: Maracanaú, Ceará, Brazil
Date of death: March 11th, 201

Fabiane Hilario (20 years old)

Cause of death: Gunshot at point blank range to the head.
Location of death: Curitiba, Paraná, Brazil
Date of death: January 27th, 2016

Dani (20 years old)
Cause of death: Gunshot to the chest
Location of death: São José do Rio Preto, São Paulo, Brazil
Date of death: January 24th, 2016

Bruna Souza (23 years old)
Cause of death: multiple stab wounds
Location of death: Rio Verde, Goiás, Brazil
Date of death: January 23rd, 2016

Ketelen Alves (23 years old)
Cause of death: gunshots
Location of death: Manaus, Brazil
Date of death: January 23rd, 2016

Giovana Atanazio (20 years old)
Cause of death: Thrown from a bridge, drowned
Location of death: São José dos Campos, Brazil
Date of death: January 17th, 2016

unidentified woman
Cause of death: multiple gunshots
Location of death: Fortaleza, Ceará, Brazil
Date of death: January 4th, 2016


Italy
Thiago Fernando Batista (30 years old)
Cause of death: unknown, body thrown in dumpster.
Location of death: Rome, Italy
Date of death: July 29th, 2016

Mexico
Paulett Gonzalez (24 years old)
Cause of death: murdered, burned beyond recognition.
Location of death: Celaya, Guanajuato, Mexico
Date of death: June 2016

Pakistan
Alisha (23 years old)
Cause of death: multiple gunshot wounds.
Location of death: Parda Bagh, Faqirbabad, Pakistan
Date of death: May 25th, 2016

Russia
Raina Aliev (25 years old)

Cause of death: dismembered
Location of death: Dagestan
Date of death: October 201

Spain
Lorena Reyes (32 years old)lorena-reyes-300×168
Cause of death: fall, after being stabbed
Location of death: Santa Cruz de Tenerife, Spain
Date of death: October 24th, 2016

Thailand
Amphon Kongsong (28 years old)
Cause of death: strangled, body stuffed in bed frame.
Location of death: Pattaya, Thailand
Date of death: August 20th, 2016

Turkey
Hande Kader (24 years old)
Cause of death: murdered, burned beyond recognition.
Location of death: Istanbul, Turkey
Date of death: August 2016

USA
Monica Loera (43 years old)monica-loera
Cause of death: gunshot
Location of death: Austin, Texas, USA
Date of death: January 22nd, 2016

Jasmine Sierra (52 years old)jsierra
Cause of death: beaten to death
Location of death: Bakersfield, California, USA
Date of death: January 22nd, 2016

Maya Young (25 years old)mayayoung
Cause of death: stabbing
Location of death: Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, USA
Date of death: February 20th, 2016


Kendarie/Kandicee Johnson (16 years old)
Cause of death: Gunshot
Location of death: Burlington, Iowa
Date of death: March 2nd, 2016

Keyonna Blakeney (22 years old)
Cause of death: upper body trauma
Location of death: Rockville, Maryland, USA
Date of death: May 1st, 2016

Tyreece  “Reecey” Walker (32 years old)
Cause of death: multiple stab wounds
Location of death: Wichita, Kansas, USA
Date of death: May 1st, 2016

Mercedes Successful (32 years old)
Cause of death: gunshot
Location of death: Haines City, Florida, USA
Date of death: May 15th, 2016

Amos Beede (38 years old)
Cause of death: beaten to death
Location of death: Burlington, Vermont
Date of death: May 22nd, 2016

Devin Diamond  (22 years old)
Cause of death: blunt force trauma, set on fire
Location of death: New Orleans, Louisiana
Date of death: June 5th, 2016

Deeniquia Dodds (22 years old)
Cause of death: shot
Location of death: Washington D.C., USA
Date of death: July 4th, 2016

Dee Whigham (36 years old)
Cause of death: stabbed to death
Location of death: St. Martin, Mississippi, USA
Date of death: July 23rd, 2016




Erykah Tijerina (36 years old)

Cause of death: Stabbed 24 times
Location of death: El Paso, Texas, USA
Date of death: August 8th, 2016

Rae’lynn Thomas (28 years old)
Cause of death: Shot at point blank range
Location of death: Columbus, Ohio, USA
Date of death: August 10th, 2016

TT Saffore (26 years old)
Cause of death: Throat cut
Location of death: Chicago, Illinois, USA
Date of death: September 11th, 2016

Crystal Edmonds (32 years old)
Cause of death: Shot in back of head
Location of death: Baltimore, Maryland, USA
Date of death: March September 16th, 2015