there is a poem in this burning

kaya’s tangerine jumps purse-ship
rolling on blue shuttle bus floor
descending the step-well

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just beyond the blue light of the campus chase bank
jamilah and i laugh
about the fractured student body
the canyons and freeways even when there aren’t canyons and freeways
the 15 minutes of time we must steal
if that is all we can get
the sips of humanness we must slip into our day

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liz and i sunsit near the shrubbery
where banishments of the power structures
are cast
where it may not matter what we say
but how it makes us laugh

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corinne reports via satellite:
there were clearly storms that whipped through those woods and it was pure chaos
branches and boughs everywhere
how relieved you must have been to un-lose yourself

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deshawn directs us through elbow-resting plank variations
lifting with our hips even when we think we no longer can
and later
my gut ringing out
as if i had been in the arms of friends
laughing
gigantically
for hours
(core conditioning = the new laughing club?)

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what it means when foot soles
don’t want the sensation of anything against them
when walking
even wearing shoes
is necessary

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and also
what does it mean when
i’d rather sew underwear for hours while listening to democracy now or npr
or send cards or write letters
than write poems/do school
what does it mean when
i am on the shuttle feeling found out
when someone returns my question
have you found things you like outside of your program in san diego?
and what does it mean when
several years ago i said
all i ever really want to do is read/perform my work
for as many people as i can
in as many different places/spaces possible
and somehow gradschool twisted this into
an uncertainty
(though my gut will always hold it as truth)
because in gradschool times
one can no longer simply read their work and splash around in it
ocean like
no
in gradschool
a research gradschool
a theorybased gradschool
one must write poems that begin fraying
that rupture
one must write poems that do 5 kinds of thinking
without mentioning any of them
one must write poems
that point to other poems doing 5 kinds of thinking
one must write poems that say yes
when you chose me for your program
you made the best decision of your life

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i have heard stories
but tonight is the first time i see a video
of someone lighting their tap water on fire
2012 the age of
water on fire
which is too profane
to add to the profane list
there is a poem in this
burning

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friends
for those of you who follow this
i’ve been thinking about how strange it is
that you can tune into a slice of this living
but i don’t always have ways of tuning in to you
(facebook a sad stand in)
and so i ask you
in any form you desire
send some details
updates
slices
show me what i’m missing